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It continues

"Grief is like the ocean, it comes on waves ebbing and flowing.  Sometimes the water is calm, and sometimes it is overwhelming.  All we can learn to do is swim." -Vicki Harrison I realize I haven't come to this blog in quite a while.  The last post I was angry and sad and I just didn't want to any part of grieving.  I always thought that grief was going through the steps and once you went through one, you went to the next and you didn't come back to the others.  I've learned that isn't true.  I have peace one moment, anger the next.  It isn't as jarring as it used to be but there are still some days where I cry.  There are days when I'm angry about all of it.  There are days that it doesn't seem real, it feels so far away.   Yesterday was a hard and something day.  I don't quite know the word to describe it.  Hopefully I can make my feelings make sense on this page.  Nick and I have been going back and forth on having more children.  It see