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Happy First Birthday Hope

When a child is born, it is the mother's instinct to protect the baby.   When a child dies, it is the mother's instinct to protect the memory.  Unknown Dear Hope, It was your birthday yesterday.  I was hoping to write your birthday letter then but things didn't turn out as I wanted them to and it was too hard.  At the end of the day I had a moment and I was at the store trying to pick out your birthday cake and it was so hard.  Would you like chocolate or vanilla? Should I get a big cake or a small cake? Would I have made you a cake?  I picked up some small little cupcakes with confetti for you and took them home to share with Henry and Hannah.  As I was driving home I was so sad because the day had not gone anything like I had hoped.  The year before it wasn't like I hoped and I realized that your birthdays will never be what I hope because you're not here with us celebrating.  I'm missing out on your smiles and smooshing cake between your fingers.  I missing o