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Day 18 of 100 Days of Grief

"When it's dark enough, you can see the stars." -Ralph Waldo Emerson It's Sunday.  Need I say more.  Actually last week wasn't so hard.  I thought that maybe I was learning how to cope but apparently not.  I couldn't seem to keep my emotions in check today.  I'm all about feeling the emotions but it's hard when it's in a public place.  Today I just tried to quietly cry to let out some of the emotion but in the middle of the sacrament Hannah said "Why are you crying mom?" Right at the quietest point.  So much for crying in discreet. In only got harder from there.  I couldn't stop crying.  I tried to avoid people but it was impossible.  I tried sitting alone in the back but someone sat by me.  I tried to not look at people in the halls but people stopped me.  Each time they asked how I was doing and the tears would just stream.  I couldn't even talk.  It was humiliating.  I know everyone was being kind and were so g