Day 10 of 100 Day of Grief
" God has mercifully ordered that the human brain works slowly. First the blow; hours afterwards, the bruise. " -Walter de la Mare Today's prompt is about allowing for numbness. I remember after coming home from the doctor and talking with the children I couldn't sleep. Nick fell asleep and I went in the front room and sat in the chair. I remember just sitting there. Tears were streaming down my face but I felt so numb. Just unable to understand what was going on. That numbness continued the next day until I had to face what I had do next. The weeks after I alternated between numbness and falling apart. I remember people wanting to talk about it and there were times where I felt so callous because I'd tell them my story and I was completely straight faced. No tears. Like I was reciting a story from someone else's life. Then there were times when I couldn't even start thinking about it without breaking into heart wrenching sobs.