100 Days of Grief

"This pouring thoughts out on paper has relieved me.  I feel better and full of confidence and resolution." -Diet Eman I made it through today!  I've been anxious all day leading up to piano lessons.  Yesterday with my 19 task to do list I cleaned the whole house and today I didn't know what to do.  I couldn't seem to sit still.  I tried reading, knitting, playing with Hannah but I kept checking my to-do list looking for something I could accomplish or check off.  The little box of teach piano lessons was taunting me all day.  The lessons went really well though.  I was worried about me being patient enough to handle the two boys but they were so well behaved.  They usually are but I just had this fear built up in my head.  I don't feel like I know what I'm doing with piano anymore.  I'm sure as I teach more it will come back.  It was a little difficult at the end when one of the boys asked why we had such a long break.  I wasn't sur